One week recap

Didn't really do much the past week, so wasn't that eventful at all : / Here's a recap:~

Monday - spent the whole day being a couch potato surfing the web in front of the tv

Tuesday - 'volunteered' to be a sucker for smsc. helped them with some math typing. well, at least i did manage to spent the whole day doing something..

Wednesday - helped at the shop, 1 day gone just like that lol

Thursday - helped at the shop too, nothing unusual there.. Had a great chat that night with Hee, Omega, Fantasy, Solid & CCV. Laughed til I won't stop coughing (' ' P) Ah, the good old days... Don't think I'll get to experience that again..

Friday - overslept, so didn't spend the day at the shop, became a couch potato again. At night had the most number of people in a chat, total chaos and confusion lol, but quite entertaining at the same time. Tried recreating the previous atmosphere but it was just impossible.

Saturday - bro's graduation, so accompanied mom there. Heavy rain at night, so kept dc-ing. Tried for a while to recreate the previous chatting atmosphere but failed again..=.= Fell asleep while waiting for the line =.= such a boring night, and it was a Sat night too!

Sunday - almost didn't do anything if I hadn't gone to check my phone, went out for a drink with 033, Cat, Tangki & Nicole. So stupid of me, called the wrong number and couldn't get Solid >.<

Well that's all there is to it, nothing special. This is sooo not what I hoped my holiday would be like. Utter boredom lol.

It's strange that I usually chat with guys only and it's kinda weird to be the only girl in the whole conversation. But then again, maybe it's cuz I like the attention?? I think I feel more relaxed chatting around guys, cuz I could just say whatever I want, no matter how it'll sound like. I think I'm more chu1 lu3 when I talk with guys, haha. Feels like I'm just talking crap but it's still enjoyable = P I don't think I talk like that with girls, bad for my image lol. I have more self-control with girls I think, and I feel that it's harder to think of a topic to talk about for girls.. Am I being biased? Lol. No idea but it's the same for my taste in music. I tend to like guys more than girls. Nevertheless isn't that normal? Lol..

Don't think I'll ever chat like that with my friends in the UK. I'm pretty sure they'll be shocked at the standard of English that I use to chat with my schoolmates here, hahahaha. Total lack of grammar and sequence. They probably don't understand a single word of what I say, lol. But I feel more relaxed chatting like that, it's more me, not fake at all : / Haiz.. Don't know if this is a good thing though.. Sometimes I'm afraid that my schoolmates would presume that what I type is the proper way of saying it, hope I'm not being a bad influence.. Well I think it makes them less intimidated by my English proficiency, haha..

Sometimes I do wonder am I being very arrogant with my level of English? I always try to find fault in others but I don't look at myself at all. I still make a lot of silly mistakes while speaking in English, so I think I should cut others some slack too.. We're all trying our best to learn this second language after all.. And maybe all this not liking Malaysian and Singaporean accents isn't a good thing at all, I'm definitely being a prejudice.. =( Should try to change the way I think.. So that I'm more open-minded. It's not like it's their fault they talk that way, that's how they were taught. It's just the same as me, it's not like I'm forcing myself to talk like this, it's just the way I was taught and learnt..

I feel like I've missed out on lots of opportunities to show everyone how good my English is. I'm definitely not the best, but no one really knows how good I am.. If only smsc had nurtured me better, I definitely could've achieved so much more. I'm quite envious of those students in St. Patrick cuz they're allowed to participate in English competitions, like speech readings, debates, forums etc.. I know I could've excelled if someone gave me the chance. Quite hated that the speech reading competitions in smsc requires one to know all 3 languages.. =.=X Definitely blew my chance there..

I mean everyone knows I'm good, but they've not seen how good I am, or was.. PMR, SPM and UEC English were really a piece of cake, and the IELTS exam was okay.. Though I wouldn't say that for the Speaking section, haha. I needed something that could test my pronunciation skills and vocabulary, but of course, there's no such thing. Haha, I remember Poh's surprise when I knew the meaning of the words he asked me. I have got to admit, those are really trivial to me, of course I didn't exactly say it like that to him, lol. I think it's best to explain to him in person, if not he would've thought that I was being arrogant, which I'm totally NOT. lol

I really wanted to help my friends to improve their speaking abilities. I've always imagined how I'll teach them the proper way to pronounce, what I'm going to teach and I also remember thinking of printing out sheets of exercises for them, lol..If only they had asked. I can't teach them directly like that, that would've portrayed me as being arrogant again..=.= but it's not like anyone would actually ask me to help them I think. I mean, I don't mind at all, it's for everyone's sake. I want them to improve too. Only a couple of them have actually asked my help before.. Well, it's never too late I think, if only someone asks.. Don't think that's gonna happen anytime soon though.. If only..

I think I'm being long-winded again... If this was someone else's blog I probably won't read the whole thing at all, haha. I think I should try to write more often instead of writing so long, hahaha.. Okay then, will continue tomorrow or maybe sometime later..